behinderstes englisch der welt, aber scheißt drauf bitches

you know that feeling when your day is so fucking english and you are so in love with this language? this day is today. but my english is so fucking bad hahaha.
you know that other feeling when you want to cry but you can't and you have to laugh about you because you are so fucking stupid hahahaha.
and then you have this feeling you want to be on drugs but you know you can't take it because you have no money and it's bad and all the other guys would hate you when you do this and then the weekend comes and you're only thinking about alcohol and cigarettes.

and then youre crying because your life is shit and then you have to laugh again.

and then there is this song and the music is so loud that you cant hear andything and the singer sings: IM NOT IN LOVE
and you think: i wish, i fucking wish
but you not really know what love is.